sweet reunion.

at long last
the days have been slow to pass
my love and i will reunite
and he will never again leave my sight.
3 months it has been
and i shall soon see him again
the world will once again be right
and he will be the last thing i see before i sleep at night.
love transcends space and time
it inspires words of rhyme
all bad things disappear
and everything becomes clear.
no more doubt within my heart
with him i will have a brand new start
for him i'd go anywhere
and as long as i'm with him, it doesn't matter where.

why china sucks.

they don't know a good thing when they see one.
the people rip you off mercilessly
the people are racist
the people can't be trusted
the government is ruthless
u breathe in exhaust constantly
there are no Targets or Costcos
it can get cold
it can get hot
it's not even that cheap
they don't know a good thing when they see one.

why it's tolerable:
subways
it's close to other countries of interest
places to see
good food
future fiance is there

wiiunfit

according to wiifit i am overweight and at the physical age of 50. i am not 50 yo chronologically. and i won't mention if i'm closer to being obese or normal. it's the wiiunfit for me. the standing tree pose is haaaaaaaaaaaard. but it's pretty fun.

i hope d gets the wiiunfit b/c what is good is the wii without it? are u a shii or a hii? i know who mii is. :)

china.

china is a whole different world.
the best part of china is that d is in it!
he loves me he loves me he loves me!
and i love him! >_<

hives

are no fun. they're all over me.
was it the fish i ate? the vitamins i'm taking again? the new nutritional supplement drink? something at work? work? the eucalyptus oil? the perfume i used last week?

too hard to tell. i should just not use/ingest anything at all. but then i'd die. :(

things i'm grateful for.

1. i don't owe the state lots of money.
2. i found my pooch a loving home.
3. my pooch didn't need bank-breaking surgery.
4. i have a job.
5. and it's close by.
6. my rent is minimal.
7. i have a bf who loves me (even if he's MIA).
8. beautiful nature.

i'm sure there's more but that's all i can think of for now. my chinese new year's resolution is to be grateful for what i have and not sour abt what i don't have.

year of the (angry) ox.

both my grandmother and mother were born in the Year of the Ox. One 84 years ago and one 60 years ago.
both have the same raging temper as a feral wild ox.
now i know where i get mine even if i was born in the Year of the Snake. maybe i'm part Ox.
we snake get mad too.
this was a pretty bad chinese new year's. probably one of the worse our family has had. tempers flew. so did mean words. and people went home angry and hungry.
well, i hope the rest of the world has a wonderful new year's. Let's hope my family does too.

is he really out of the white house?

W was just wrong. so glad he's officially out.

a ring woulda been sweeter...

but i'll settle for flowers. love you d. thank you for remembering across the pacific.

1 year anniversary

yesterday was the saddest anniversary i've ever not celebrated. apart and half a globe away, it was a sad way to remember the 1 year we've been together. but our love is strong and we will be reunited again. it is with that prospect that i wake up each morning and smile thinking of d. time will fly, although it feels like it's crawling right now. but soon, we shall be together once more.

happy 1 year d.
i love you now and always.
and i will always remember the day we decided we wanted to be boyfriend girlfriend. :)

TM 2nd week

so tonight i did my first speech at Toastmasters int'l. it was impromptu. we had to pick a fortune cookie and make a speech on how the fortune related to our lives. my fortune said something about me being a quality person. i was so nervous. i honestly can't even remember what i said. i blushed, shook, looked down, froze and they counted 6 ums, and a few other filler words. out of everyone, i had the single highest number of filler words. i outnumbered everyone else by ALOT. i know this about myself, but it was just embarassing to hear them tell me how many i used. they tell everyone how many they used. you'd think i'd be used to this by now with all the presentations and speeches i have done, but NO.

i'm summoning up courage to go back next week. i paid my fees so i pretty much committed. my little cousin agreed to go check it out next week. she's an introvert. i don't know if she'll actually join.

i just wanted to say aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

a thought at 1257.

i think my cousins are neat.

twilight.

as much as i loved the movie and want to love the novel, i just can't get past the first few pages of the book. i think the unsophisticated style of writing just doesn't stimulate my brain enough. and i think we all can agree robert pattinson made the movie.

but i will try try again.

Laguna Beach in the winter.

i sure am gonna miss the sunny winters 'round here when i move to china. one of the best things about OC has got to be the nearly year round summer weather.

home sweet home.

these past couple weeks have been bittersweet, sad and happy at the same time. i've found nibblet a new home and her new parents and elvis, her bf, are head over heels in love with her. i feel confident that her new life in gorgeous laguna beach, where there are sunbathing decks with an ocean view, a million-dollar beach resort home, a new boyfriend, and gracious loving human parents will give her a life even i will envy.

this is probably one of the hardest things i have had to do in my life. any dog-owner knows that their pooch is just like their child. but following in the tradition of the Joy Luck Club, i'd rather give up my child in the hopes of a wonderful life than keep her and have her possibly put down by the chinese government during quarantine. well not exactly Joy Luck Club, but same premise. i visit her once a week, b/c i miss her and i don't take her home with me, to get used to her not being around. it's been hard, lonely and sad but i tell myself everyday, this is for the best.

here's to nibblet's new home sweet home.

argyle.

my co-worker is mad b/c she and i wore the same exact Target argyle
sweater. i have never had this happen. maybe we have the same decadent
taste. but she's so mad she wants to go home and change! it's better than
wearing the same prom dress!

quote of the day

Hope is a waking dream. -Aristotle

LDR

i never believed in long distance relationships.
i still don't.
and i never will.

so there.

upper sea.

shanghai means upper sea. well, that's my literal translation. i do know that i will definitely experience an "upper" when i "see" d again.

oh romeo romeo wherefore art thou romeo
deny thy father and refuse thy name
for if thou wilt not
be but sworn by my love
and i shall no longer be a capulet.

'Tis but thy name that is my enemy; Thou art thyself, though not a Montague. What's Montague? it is nor hand, nor foot, Nor arm, nor face, nor any other part Belonging to a man. O, be some other name! What's in a name? that which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet; So Romeo would, were he not Romeo call'd, Retain that dear perfection which he owes Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name, And for that name which is no part of thee Take all myself.

in the mood for shakespeare. these are my 2 fave monologues from billy shakespeare, courtesy of juliet.

call me tragic
call me sick
this is not something
i would pick.

friendship is the only rose without a thorn

here

and then gone

not believing

what went wrong.

friendship

is the only rose without a thorn

a phrase not true

yet well worn.

unconditional

does not exist

disappointment

does persist.

nostalgic

for days gone by

today

a part of me died.

lost dog.

last night as i was driving home, i saw a white dog running around leashless on the sidewalk near my house. my first instinct was to see if it had a tag and take it home with me. and i did not want him/her to get run over by a car. i left my car on the side of the street and began sprinting towards where i last saw the dog. a guy on a bike helped me chase down the dog. i think it was stray cus when i called it, it stopped and growled at me. it didn't seem to have a tag. i ran after it and he kept going. i went back to my car and drove around hoping to find it. i knew if i called animal control, they wouldn't be able to find it. i was kinda sad cus i thought it might get run over and i figured it was stray. it was kinda a sad night. i never saw the dog again.

it looked kinda like this dog.

quotes of the day

everyday when i get into the office, i make myself a hot cup of decaf lemongrass green tea. they have little quotes on the tags. today i had 2 bags. the 2 quotes of the day are:

The truth is the kindest thing we can give folks in the end. -Harriet Beecher Stowe

Failure is not falling down but refusing to get up. -Chinese proverb

Both quotes carry personal meaning to me today, esp. the first one.

lucky bamboo

whenever i have a new office, i buy a plant and see if i can keep it alive and make it thrive. the only green thumb i have is the color of gangrene, mold, and rot on the plant as it dies. i couldn't keep cactus alive. i was told plants absorb our energy. if the plant is alive, so are you. at my last office, i tried so hard to keep a beautiful plant alive, but it seemed to wilt even though i watered it often. when i left, i bequeathed it to a friend with a green thumb.

i just bought a lucky bamboo and will try my best to keep this alive. i heard bamboo are pretty hardy which is primarily why i bought it, in addition to how cool bamboo are anyway.

here's to life. mine and the (hopefully) lucky bamboo.

Life resolutions.

screw New Year's resolutions. i don't need a new year as an excuse to improve myself. my life is a good enough reason. that's why i've got LIFE resolutions.

1. get healthy. that means getting in shape, getting fit, eating healthier, eating less, exercising. i really need to join a gym to keep the exercise regular. not only cus it's dark when i get outta work, it's probably safer too. and as of today, decreasing my 203 cholesterol count. i don't want to die of a stroke at age 31. this seems to be a rolling resolution.
2. follow through with hobby aspirations. today i attended my first Toastmasters Int'l meeting. tomorrow i plan to enroll in a Ceramics class at a local comm. college. i've been wanting to do both since forever. i've been wanting to enroll in different educational and recreational classes ever since i graduated. eventually i plan to join the Sierra Club informally. it was way too much fun hiking this weekend. and i want to pick up my guitar again. i want to pick up my paintbrush again. i've begun picking up books again. when was the last time anyone read an actual book (besides Twilight, these days?)
3. think positive. again, another rolling resolution. like they say, wherever you go, you follow. and i say wherever you think, you follow.
4. enjoy being alone. enjoy solitude. enjoy my own company. my hobby has always been my friends. friends are a great addition to life, but they shouldn't be your hobby.
5. work on me. this should always be my first priority but somehow has always found a way to remain at the bottom of my list. essentially, if i accomplish the first 4 resolutions, this will be accomplished too.

here's to everyone working on their life resolutions. it may take a lifetime to accomplish them but since you're alive anyway, why not work on a few things?

Toastmasters Int'l

i went to a Toastmasters Int'l meeting tonight and have decided to join. it's one of those life resolutions i never got around to doing. but i decided it's time. it's something i've been wanting to do for years now. it's a group where the members perfect their public speaking skills, group-leading skills and evaluate others' speeches. there is structure, form and organization in the weekly meetings and it was a bit unnerving as i watched the members do planned and impromptu speeches in front of an audience of about 11. public speaking tops the nation's greatest fears list and it's time for me to conquer it. it will do wonders wherever i go, whatever i do. it will make me a more comfortable person in general. in my profession, you do alot of training and presentations and speaking to groups. public speaking is not only essential but part and parcel to my work. this oughta be hard and fun at the same time. we even got a First Time attendees ribbon!